All Glory to Sri Guru and Gouranga!

Oh my adorable Lord! In the form of Sri Guruji!

Kindly accept my humble obeisances at your lotus feet. Your Divine Grace is the most confidential associate of Sri Krishna. So you know the best what Lord Sri Krishna wants – what He desires. It has already been expressed through you in your kind letter of 7/10/74 to me when I was at Vrindaban. Lord Sri Krishna desires that I should be posted in Orissa to propagate your philosophy. It is already mentioned in your letter cited above.

But I, a conditioned soul, have so many desires. You are “banchha kalpataru” (a desire fulfilling tree). You have fulfilled all my desires both subtle and gross. As I had desire to know something more about your ideals and philosophy and equip myself with that, my going to Orissa, as per your desire, postponed. Through your causeless mercy I got all opportunity to fulfill my desire. I don’t want to give a lengthy statement to all these things. Your Divine Grace knows it well. Now I have come to senses. Now I learn it very well that unless the will of the individual soul is identical with the Supreme will, the living being cannot get peace. Such is the case with me. From Mayapur I went to Bombay, got second initiation from you, came to Hyderabad as per the instruction of Sri Jashomatinandana Das and did some seva in connection with the publication of your books in Hindi. I did it as you had once told me at Bombay to do what Jashomatinandana Das said. But I could not get peace and bliss that my heart desires. It is needless to mention here that I was getting transcendental peace and bliss at Vrindaban, when I was doing translation work in Hindi as per your instruction. But I fail to get that sort of bliss now. Now it is quite clear to me that my place is in Orissa. I must do whatever is expressed in your letter of 7/10/74. That is the desire of Lord Sri Krishna. Your Divine Grace has also said this again at Bombay.

Now it is my prayer that I don’t want to make further delay to go to Orissa. Now I am prepared to go to Orissa to fulfill your desire. Kindly instruct me what to do and how to do. Kindly send some devotees with me, who will be helpful in the propagation of your mission and doing work there.

I had another prayer to you that I might be given ‘Sanyas Diksha’ before going to Orissa. Now I don’t want to press it on you. Your Divine Grace may give me ‘Sanyas Diksha’ if you please, otherwise not. I want only your causeless mercy and constant flow of ‘Krupa’ unto me to do your seva with Prema to the best satisfaction of your Divine Grace.

Sometimes I feel myself very weak. Kindly give me ‘Sakti’ and fiery determination to be fearless enough to do your seva life-long having been situated in transcendental sphere.

Let thy desire be fulfilled utilising this servant as an instrument in thy hands.

Hare Krushna.
Your eternal servant at your lotus feet
Goura Gobinda Das

Your Divine Grace knows ins and outs of this servant of yours. Still my mind prompts me to narrate before you the wonderful life-history of mine, if you so please and will be pleased enough to give a patient hearing to it.

Hare Krushna!
Your eternal servant,
Gour Govinda Das